Monday, June 6, 2011
Happy Birthday Grandma...I Miss You!!
Even though my Grandmother passed away 32 years ago (November will be 33 years), today she would have been 92 years old. I think about her every single day and miss her so very much. I was always with her when I was a little girl and have so many fond memories of her. I remember how excited I would get when I knew she would be babysitting me. She would sit by my bedside and either do needlepoint or read the newspaper until I fell asleep. I remember going to department store with my Grandma and my Mom to go shopping. Somehow, my Grandma and I wandered away from my Mom and since we couldn't find her, Grandma said "let's go in the parking lot and wait by the car for her." While we are waiting by the car, all of a sudden we see my Mom come in frantically into the parking lot with a security guard. She was so furious with us, but, I think it was more fear when she couldn't find us. I remember the smell of her cooking and how we were always together. I especially miss smelling her perfume when she would give me a hug and kiss.
I wish my Mom never had to go through such a terrible loss. Especially, when she went through her divorce with my Dad. We all needed her during that time. I had such a hard time with her death and I still do everyday.
I always wonder if she was alive today, how things would be different. She would have seen me graduate college, go to my first real job in the city, get my first apartment, fall in love and marry my soul mate. She would have loved E and I know he would have loved her. I think she would have been tickled pink about how I love to sew, love beading (she always did beaded flowers), want to learn how to knit. She made my sister and I beautiful sweaters with matching hats. I definitely get my creative bug from her and my Mom. I always feel when I'm doing something creative, that she is right there beside me and always will be.